2022, 2023

01.24.23 It Feels Like a Totally Different Life

Another Kelli Bachara post hit me between the eyes today so I am sharing it below.  A little over two years ago my husband Roy passed away suddenly. I’ve been through most, if not all of the stages of grief along the way. My life stopped and shattered at first. I’ve had heart-sinking experiences and happy glorious experiences in my life since then.
My life has evolved into this new “normal” that I have now. Much, much more happiness than sadness. As Kelli says below, I would never have seen the possibility of me having the life I have now when this all started over two years ago. I am sure that my life will continue to go through mountain-top experiences to those in the valley, but I am so thankful that my God will be right beside me every step of the way.
Today a memory popped up on my Facebook memories from 7 years ago.
It was one of those moments when I simultaneously felt the pain I was experiencing as if I was back in that life 7 years ago..
And I also felt such a great sense of awe and gratitude at how much my life has changed since then.
I mean, it feels like a totally different life.
And that’s often how it goes.
Life can feel like it’s standing still and then right before our eyes, things change.
Usually, in ways we would never expect or predict.
Someone just yesterday said to me, “If you would’ve told me a year ago that I would be here.. I never would have believed you.”
I hear this all the time.
Out of seemingly nowhere, someone pops into our life and becomes our spouse or our best friend.
A job suddenly comes into our view and we somehow manage to get hired.
We get involved in some sort of group or community and we are changed forever.
We actually heal and get healthier.
Sometimes I like looking back because it always reminds me that God can change our hearts and circumstances radically.
There is always hope things can get better.
It goes to show how God knows what we need better than we do.
Because if we were honest, we know we would have done something different.
We would have picked a different door.
But God knew the right one all along.
And that’s why He is God and we aren’t.
I know that sometimes waiting on His timing is so difficult, and can feel disheartening.
But just take a look back and see where He has brought you.
Remember who He is, and how He has carried you.
A year from now, life may be drastically different.
(Or even a month or week from now.)
But even if it’s not, it doesn’t mean that He still doesn’t have a good plan.
He sees so much more than we do, and He knows way better than we do.
If we can rest in that, it makes surrendering so much easier.
It’s okay not to like where you are at in life.
I don’t think God calls us to complacency or to live a life that is unhealthy.
So do what you can to help yourself, but remember that He is the healer and the ultimate planner of our life.
Look to Him. Follow Him.
Bring your fears and disappointment to Him.
And believe that there will be a day when you look back and see how far He has brought you.
And you might just say, “I never would have thought I’d be here, but I’m so glad I am.”
~Kelli Bachara, The Unraveling Blog
This Go that I call “my” God can be your God too. I’d love to share more with you about Him if you’d like. Send me a comment and I’ll get in touch!

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