10.27.20 I am in a punching mood…..

I am in a punching mood…. Oh my goodness. I never in my life would have thought that losing my husband that I loved dearly would be this tough.

I am a strong woman and keeping it together around other people is doable for me.

But when I am alone my heart hurts so much sometimes I can hardly stand it. Parts of my day are really good like nothing bad’s happened. Then the times that I miss his presence grab my heart and I cry like someone just stabbed me and I cry and cry.

I am sure I am no different than any other woman feels who loved their husband deeply and lost them suddenly. I just happen to be one with a blog that I can share these awful feelings with others.

I miss Roy so much and would give anything for God to give him back to me. This grief thing just stinks. It hits when I least expect it to.

Okay, enough of that.

I am having hand surgery soon as I shared with ya’ll. Tomorrow I have preop testing at Cypress Pointe Hospital in Hammond. I have to be there at 8:45 am. Since they are an hour from me I have to leave here at 7:45 am and to do that I have to wake up at some abnormal time of the morning so I’ll be calling it quits very soon and hoping to get to sleep soon thereafter!

I’m feeling better since I unloaded here. Sorry, ya’ll have to read all that but I needed to write it.

Ya’ll have a wonderful evening. Please continue praying for me, I obviously still need it. Rosalyn